i've just realized that my friends don't respect me- since that i guess they are not my friends
i hate those people so much. since i can remember i’ve always had troubles with my self-confidence and self-assessment. even as a 5 years old child i felt terrible about myself. and since i was self-awarness everyone had been proving me how bad/awful i am. so okay, their mission is completed- i hate everyone, i hate myself, i feel uncomfortable in the world and uncomfortable as me, i don’t want to exist, i feel like bad person although im trying to help other people especially when it comes to those ill and poor ones but who cares- for everyone i’m just weird human being who doesn’t deserve any attention. ok, i got used to it. but it still hurts me. everybody (even my family and even me) is enemy for me. i’m scared of every tomorrow.